Yeah, 21 days... Our number...
It's close already, not as close as i would have wanted, but it's close...
I'm nervous, i must admit, more than i would imagine... I'm realllllly nervous ^^'
Meeting your parents... Your mum and dad... Well, from what i know they seem to be pretty cool, but i'm really nervous about meeting them...
Your mum... She sounded a bit too serious, or even harsh, when we talked on the phone, but i kinda felt safe on her words, and the nice text she wrote me after my text in new years kinda made me feel like part of the family.
Your dad... I don't know that much about him, and he wants to take me to sauna... And... If he says something and you are not there to rescue me? If he talks like... things? :'D But he's a nice guy, right? ^^'
And your brother? Ville?? Well... Probably i wont talk to him... But... I hope he doesn't look at me like a stranger...
The worst part is that they'll be at home a loooooooooot x) can't you kick them out?? ^^'
I wanna visit your school... I want to visit Mäntsälä... I want you to show me your place near the train thingy... I wanna see it all, i wanna see it all with you :3
I hope you'll have the perfect night at Huili, reservation for 2 at... 16.00? :'D
That's dinner to you, but it's lunch to me! But i hope, we'll have the perfect day!
I so wanna be there, with you!!!!!! The public hugs just to annoy people! :3 Can i hug you at your school? ^^'
And hun... Mark me up... ^^'
quinta-feira, janeiro 29, 2009
just missing you, as usual...
21!!
It's our number, huh? ^^' And guess who's coming to Finland after only 21 DAYS? You!! That's exactly 3 weeks! YAY!! x)
Erhm... ^^'
I can't wait till you're here, honey.. It's like... Now I actually look forward to have those listening comprehension parts for all the finals I'll have, cos I know, that only one week from that, you're here, with me.. And we can be together again, finally..!
And even tho it's only for a few days, my love, I know it's worth it. It always is, isn't it? To talk, to see that you're there, even tho it's only fights and mean words. Like you said yourself, it's only cos we miss each other so much.
I hate to fight with you, I so do... Tho sometimes it's just fun.. x) Think hun, when we live together there and we'll have these stupid little arguments, it's gonna be so much easier... You know how to piss me off, but I know that when you're right next to me, I have no reason to be mad at you. I love you...
You know I'm afraid of moving there. But I dont want you to ever think that I'd have any doubts about it, honey! When I was there, for that week in December, I felt like I was finally home. It's a weird feeling... I just felt so in peace with myself, you know? I hope you could feel the same when you come here, but... I cant really say that I'd be sure you do. Your home is there, just like mine is. Maybe at some point we have a little change of heart and feel the need to move here. I wouldn't mind. But for now... Even if I decide to come here to study, It's only temporary for me. My life is in Portugal now. Cos sweetie... YOU are in Portugal. You're my Portugal...^^'
( My first thingy on our blog.. nhih! ^^' I'm so sure this makes you more than happy, huh? )
It's our number, huh? ^^' And guess who's coming to Finland after only 21 DAYS? You!! That's exactly 3 weeks! YAY!! x)
Erhm... ^^'
I can't wait till you're here, honey.. It's like... Now I actually look forward to have those listening comprehension parts for all the finals I'll have, cos I know, that only one week from that, you're here, with me.. And we can be together again, finally..!
And even tho it's only for a few days, my love, I know it's worth it. It always is, isn't it? To talk, to see that you're there, even tho it's only fights and mean words. Like you said yourself, it's only cos we miss each other so much.
I hate to fight with you, I so do... Tho sometimes it's just fun.. x) Think hun, when we live together there and we'll have these stupid little arguments, it's gonna be so much easier... You know how to piss me off, but I know that when you're right next to me, I have no reason to be mad at you. I love you...
You know I'm afraid of moving there. But I dont want you to ever think that I'd have any doubts about it, honey! When I was there, for that week in December, I felt like I was finally home. It's a weird feeling... I just felt so in peace with myself, you know? I hope you could feel the same when you come here, but... I cant really say that I'd be sure you do. Your home is there, just like mine is. Maybe at some point we have a little change of heart and feel the need to move here. I wouldn't mind. But for now... Even if I decide to come here to study, It's only temporary for me. My life is in Portugal now. Cos sweetie... YOU are in Portugal. You're my Portugal...^^'
( My first thingy on our blog.. nhih! ^^' I'm so sure this makes you more than happy, huh? )
quarta-feira, janeiro 28, 2009
Overly unactive...
I hate to do exercise... I really do...
I know i had a overly active life, but now... I just wanna be sited, and talk to youuuuuuuu...
Yeah, i know you are bored all the time and you would like to do something... But I'm not like that... Not anymore at least... Maybe cause i had enough of my going outs and i just wanna settle now... And... With youuuuuuuuuuu...
But maybe it's just a phase and i begin to be more active again and going out or something... Thought i doubt it...
As you know i used to play football... I was never home... In fact to be honest i almost didn't had a home, just went there to sleep, and i got enough of it.
I can't live without exercise, my body got so used to that, and now i have to go to gym, otherwise I'll be all... Weird... And besides I've promised you i would be more fit when I'm in there, and not get tired so easily.
One thing's for sure i wont sleep all that much when I'm there, i don't have work, so it will be much more easy, and we don't have the Xmas stress, so... I really hope it will be some non stressing days... Tho... There's nothing relaxing about meting your people, and the fact they all talk english wont help all that much...
I miss football... You know i do... But i had to leave it, wouldn't be fair to spend all weekends out and not be able to talk to you (and maybe that's why sometimes i get upset when you say you going out, i go out too but... you know what i mean) besides the trainings... I had to leave it... But gosh! I miss it... I love to run, i love to play with passion and rough... I must admit... I even feel some pleasure when i got red cards...
But now... I only want to be active with you, for you...
I know i had a overly active life, but now... I just wanna be sited, and talk to youuuuuuuu...
Yeah, i know you are bored all the time and you would like to do something... But I'm not like that... Not anymore at least... Maybe cause i had enough of my going outs and i just wanna settle now... And... With youuuuuuuuuuu...
But maybe it's just a phase and i begin to be more active again and going out or something... Thought i doubt it...
As you know i used to play football... I was never home... In fact to be honest i almost didn't had a home, just went there to sleep, and i got enough of it.
I can't live without exercise, my body got so used to that, and now i have to go to gym, otherwise I'll be all... Weird... And besides I've promised you i would be more fit when I'm in there, and not get tired so easily.
One thing's for sure i wont sleep all that much when I'm there, i don't have work, so it will be much more easy, and we don't have the Xmas stress, so... I really hope it will be some non stressing days... Tho... There's nothing relaxing about meting your people, and the fact they all talk english wont help all that much...
I miss football... You know i do... But i had to leave it, wouldn't be fair to spend all weekends out and not be able to talk to you (and maybe that's why sometimes i get upset when you say you going out, i go out too but... you know what i mean) besides the trainings... I had to leave it... But gosh! I miss it... I love to run, i love to play with passion and rough... I must admit... I even feel some pleasure when i got red cards...
But now... I only want to be active with you, for you...
terça-feira, janeiro 27, 2009
segunda-feira, janeiro 26, 2009
20th December, 2008
I've never writed about this day... Probably one of the best ones of my entire life...
20th December, 2008
9.30... I woke up, you've made be online cause you'd be very nervous, and you really were.
It was sooooooo difficult for me to wake up, you know that at the previous night i had that party, the company party, and i went to bed at 4.00, so i just wanted to rest, cause i would have a long trip ahead of me, and you know it's long trip, we've made it twice together.
You really were nervous...
We talked till you had to go to the airport... It was a great conversation, at least i've felt a bit more... Calm...
"See you later then"
I went to prepare myself for the upcoming week, i packed my bag prepared my laptop and i was realy to go and buy the last goods...
I went to shower... While i was showering Tony called "Are you nervous man?" "Yeah..." "Don't be... It's gonna be ok, i know it" - He was right...
Then i went to the hotel, i went to do the check-in room 215... Although we had to change it later to 225? Was it?
Loading the car with fuel... Text... "Oh... Now i'm all on my own here... I feel sooo lost... o.o gods, this is so weird, i'm like really coming there... Soon.. O.O i love you, honey..."
Went home, car was ready, bags too, good for the trip also, money and gps all set... In the next 5 hours i couldn't contact you...
I lunched... Went to the car and start driving, i was ahead of schedule so i drove calmly, but i was soooooooooo nervous, i've stoped like 4 times on the rest-stop...
In the moment I've seen the sign "Lisboa 50km" i was like "O.o oh my god, it's 17.30... 2hours... so close" But strangely i felt more calm, this calmness lasted till the moment i entered the airport...
I parked the car...
"Helsinki - Arrivel time 19.25" - It's so close... It's 19.15 already...
"Helsinki - Landed 19.26" O.o
Text "I just got my case from the line and i have absolutely no idea what i should do now... I'm so in panic"
Awnser "Just... follow the people"
Text "But... These people are going everywhere!"
Ok, at this moment i called you...
"-Hey
-Hi...
-So... i can't go in there... You have to come here...
-I'm sitted on the suitcase, this is so heavy
-You have to cross the green door...
-I see two doors...
-Wait... I'll ask the lady what you should do... I'll call you soon"
"-Hey...
-Hi...
-The lady said the only thing you have to do is come through this door...
-OK... Ugh! This is heavy... Uf...
-OK, I'm seeing you already... Turn right... Your right... I'll meet you at the end... See ya"
Then... the moment i'll never forget... You were there... So... beautiful, with those beautiful eyes... You looked so lost... I got near you "Hi"... We huged... With a hug that lasted for like 5 minutes, all the people staring at us...
We touched our lips...
"We can give hands..."
I carried your suitcase, gods it was heavy, you were right... You texted your mum...
And we looked for the place were i parked the car.. You know i always get so lost... I never know were i park...
Trip... A non-awkard silence... So beautiful sound of you when you breath... Sound of you playing with the piercing... So cute ^^
After the quick visit to my parents, were you almost faint we went to the hotel...
"Can i kiss you? ^^'" We kiss almost a kiss with no end... and then we hug and cuddle... For so long...
From that moment on... We were sure...
Forever, princess...
20th December, 2008
9.30... I woke up, you've made be online cause you'd be very nervous, and you really were.
It was sooooooo difficult for me to wake up, you know that at the previous night i had that party, the company party, and i went to bed at 4.00, so i just wanted to rest, cause i would have a long trip ahead of me, and you know it's long trip, we've made it twice together.
You really were nervous...
We talked till you had to go to the airport... It was a great conversation, at least i've felt a bit more... Calm...
"See you later then"
I went to prepare myself for the upcoming week, i packed my bag prepared my laptop and i was realy to go and buy the last goods...
I went to shower... While i was showering Tony called "Are you nervous man?" "Yeah..." "Don't be... It's gonna be ok, i know it" - He was right...
Then i went to the hotel, i went to do the check-in room 215... Although we had to change it later to 225? Was it?
Loading the car with fuel... Text... "Oh... Now i'm all on my own here... I feel sooo lost... o.o gods, this is so weird, i'm like really coming there... Soon.. O.O i love you, honey..."
Went home, car was ready, bags too, good for the trip also, money and gps all set... In the next 5 hours i couldn't contact you...
I lunched... Went to the car and start driving, i was ahead of schedule so i drove calmly, but i was soooooooooo nervous, i've stoped like 4 times on the rest-stop...
In the moment I've seen the sign "Lisboa 50km" i was like "O.o oh my god, it's 17.30... 2hours... so close" But strangely i felt more calm, this calmness lasted till the moment i entered the airport...
I parked the car...
"Helsinki - Arrivel time 19.25" - It's so close... It's 19.15 already...
"Helsinki - Landed 19.26" O.o
Text "I just got my case from the line and i have absolutely no idea what i should do now... I'm so in panic"
Awnser "Just... follow the people"
Text "But... These people are going everywhere!"
Ok, at this moment i called you...
"-Hey
-Hi...
-So... i can't go in there... You have to come here...
-I'm sitted on the suitcase, this is so heavy
-You have to cross the green door...
-I see two doors...
-Wait... I'll ask the lady what you should do... I'll call you soon"
"-Hey...
-Hi...
-The lady said the only thing you have to do is come through this door...
-OK... Ugh! This is heavy... Uf...
-OK, I'm seeing you already... Turn right... Your right... I'll meet you at the end... See ya"
Then... the moment i'll never forget... You were there... So... beautiful, with those beautiful eyes... You looked so lost... I got near you "Hi"... We huged... With a hug that lasted for like 5 minutes, all the people staring at us...
We touched our lips...
"We can give hands..."
I carried your suitcase, gods it was heavy, you were right... You texted your mum...
And we looked for the place were i parked the car.. You know i always get so lost... I never know were i park...
Trip... A non-awkard silence... So beautiful sound of you when you breath... Sound of you playing with the piercing... So cute ^^
After the quick visit to my parents, were you almost faint we went to the hotel...
"Can i kiss you? ^^'" We kiss almost a kiss with no end... and then we hug and cuddle... For so long...
From that moment on... We were sure...
Forever, princess...
quinta-feira, janeiro 22, 2009
I'm so... Yours....
Well... This is a short entry... But just to say this...
I'm so in love with you, i'll be forever yours...
I've found in your heart a place for me... Now... It's our heart...
You can count on me to help you when you're down, to take your fears away.
I can't wait to fall asleep and wake up again on your side... Less then one month, and you'll have me there...
I'm so yours... You so own me...
Yours forever,
Nelly bear...
I'm so in love with you, i'll be forever yours...
I've found in your heart a place for me... Now... It's our heart...
You can count on me to help you when you're down, to take your fears away.
I can't wait to fall asleep and wake up again on your side... Less then one month, and you'll have me there...
I'm so yours... You so own me...
Yours forever,
Nelly bear...
You are so amazing...
You are just so amazing i get no words...
What could i possibly want more?
You are amazing, great!
Funny, caring, loving, tender, loyal, beautiful, warm, tasteful, simple yet complex ^^', petite, smart, graceful, i dunno... So many good things on you...
I love you, you are so great! And you are miiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiine ^^'
You are making a scarf for me ^^' that's so cute, nobody have done that for me before... I love everything you give me...
And that scarf, i'll use it always (In the winter, of course)
Well... honey bee... I love you!!!! :3
What could i possibly want more?
You are amazing, great!
Funny, caring, loving, tender, loyal, beautiful, warm, tasteful, simple yet complex ^^', petite, smart, graceful, i dunno... So many good things on you...
I love you, you are so great! And you are miiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiine ^^'
You are making a scarf for me ^^' that's so cute, nobody have done that for me before... I love everything you give me...
And that scarf, i'll use it always (In the winter, of course)
Well... honey bee... I love you!!!! :3
quarta-feira, janeiro 21, 2009
^^'
And you know i wont never color my hair, honey... So... that means forever... My stuffy little thingy! ^^'
Happy Birthday!!
Happy Birthday honey!
I know you don't care much about your birthday, but hey, it's you... so it's always important for me at least...
Anyway, 19 years old... We both know ages for us don't matter, we act likes kids anyways, and it's gonna be always like this, huh? ^^'
Able to be serious when we really need, but... We choose the kiddish way, and it's great! xD
Well... I hope you like my gifts, you don't have to like them, or pretend you liked them just to please me, and it's not something you need... But i think they are pretty so that's a match with you...
Honey... Since long time ago...
I've asked myself what would my life be without you..
And since that, i want you, i love you, i adore you and i want you again...
Till the day i dye, you can count on me...
I know you don't care much about your birthday, but hey, it's you... so it's always important for me at least...
Anyway, 19 years old... We both know ages for us don't matter, we act likes kids anyways, and it's gonna be always like this, huh? ^^'
Able to be serious when we really need, but... We choose the kiddish way, and it's great! xD
Well... I hope you like my gifts, you don't have to like them, or pretend you liked them just to please me, and it's not something you need... But i think they are pretty so that's a match with you...
Honey... Since long time ago...
I've asked myself what would my life be without you..
And since that, i want you, i love you, i adore you and i want you again...
Till the day i dye, you can count on me...
segunda-feira, janeiro 19, 2009
I want it now!
It's a fact that every human beeing lives in the present with the future in mind, also a fact that we think about the future when it looks like it will be great...
Well, i was never one of those persons, i always was thinking about the present trying to make one day at a time, but without thinking about the future, cause in the past my future seemed so dark and unhappy, well... It's different now...
Truth that i'm still trying to survive every each day and hopefully going to bed and sleep without any concern, sometimes that is just not possible, but now and all of a sudden my future seems so good and bright...
The click happened and now it all makes more sense to me, we'll move, we'll have our home, eventhough you don't know anything about portuguese, well, you wont need it ^^ eventhough we are so poor, but we'll live together, and happy, and that's our future, that's what we want, and after we are together we'll live our days like they were the last of our life, but always thinking about the future, cause we are immortal together... Confusing? Huh? ^^
Well... All this to say one simple thing... My next future will be 19/02... Till that day i'll enter in autopilot mode when i'm not talking with you, cause... You are all i live for... I can't wait for it, and time goes so slow when we want it to run...
Yours...
Well, i was never one of those persons, i always was thinking about the present trying to make one day at a time, but without thinking about the future, cause in the past my future seemed so dark and unhappy, well... It's different now...
Truth that i'm still trying to survive every each day and hopefully going to bed and sleep without any concern, sometimes that is just not possible, but now and all of a sudden my future seems so good and bright...
The click happened and now it all makes more sense to me, we'll move, we'll have our home, eventhough you don't know anything about portuguese, well, you wont need it ^^ eventhough we are so poor, but we'll live together, and happy, and that's our future, that's what we want, and after we are together we'll live our days like they were the last of our life, but always thinking about the future, cause we are immortal together... Confusing? Huh? ^^
Well... All this to say one simple thing... My next future will be 19/02... Till that day i'll enter in autopilot mode when i'm not talking with you, cause... You are all i live for... I can't wait for it, and time goes so slow when we want it to run...
Yours...
sexta-feira, janeiro 09, 2009
I'm living for you... Only for you...
I had the best Christmas time of my life... Not that i like Christmas, not that it's my favourite time of the year, but... This year was diferent... This year i had the person of my life with me... And now i'm engaged... Yeah... people that know me might think that i'm crazy... I'm not! Never been so sure of one thing in my life...
What can i say? She's perfect! I'm engaged! We will marry, we have no doubts, even our families agree... It's so much easier this way...
And... She's perfect!!!
We have the rings already x)
We've spend a great week together! In February i'll go there to meet her family ^^' I'm so nervous about it... But i don't mind, it's my girlfriend family, so it's my family too ^^'
She's perfect...
What can i say? She's perfect! I'm engaged! We will marry, we have no doubts, even our families agree... It's so much easier this way...
And... She's perfect!!!
We have the rings already x)
We've spend a great week together! In February i'll go there to meet her family ^^' I'm so nervous about it... But i don't mind, it's my girlfriend family, so it's my family too ^^'
She's perfect...
sexta-feira, janeiro 02, 2009
Deeeeeeeeeply in Love...
I'm deeply in love...
I've fallen for you, so deply, i'm so into you... that now... My life depends on you...
I know you feel the same... And that makes me so happy, never thought this kind of feeling could ever been felt by someone... But it can... And i'm feeling it now...
I love you Viivi...
I miss so much your touch, your smell, your hand holding mine, your lips, your voice, your way of looking, your laughs... I even miss the snowman ^^'
Honey? I love you! I always and forever will...
We are far away from each other... But, i'm sure about the future... The future is us...
As i've told you in the calls i've made to you on New Years, 2009 will be our year, we'll move and we'll start on living together, you own my heart. I'm yours...
I love you, honey <3
I've fallen for you, so deply, i'm so into you... that now... My life depends on you...
I know you feel the same... And that makes me so happy, never thought this kind of feeling could ever been felt by someone... But it can... And i'm feeling it now...
I love you Viivi...
I miss so much your touch, your smell, your hand holding mine, your lips, your voice, your way of looking, your laughs... I even miss the snowman ^^'
Honey? I love you! I always and forever will...
We are far away from each other... But, i'm sure about the future... The future is us...
As i've told you in the calls i've made to you on New Years, 2009 will be our year, we'll move and we'll start on living together, you own my heart. I'm yours...
I love you, honey <3
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